Dear Lost,

Dear Lost,

I love you more than mangos AND pineapples. Put together. Seriously. That's love.

As you obviously already know, we've made love numerous amounts of times; as for I have been your undying diehard fan for so many years and love you feverishly. And so... I am sorry I must admit to you this:

I am an ultimate denial. I do not want to believe you are ending. It comes without saying, then... (even though I am about to say it...) ... I will not watch you tonight. Or next weeks tonight. Or... many, many nights to come. All nights, actually. Of your final season.

So, I ask you with the utmost sincerity... Please tell your wonderful audience members to not tell me anything that happens in you for the next few months. So that when you're finally over, I can maybe accept the fact that you're actually dead and gone forever more... and finally watch your last season in its entirety. In one day. The way it should be done.

Thank you, old lover. And always remember that I love you and I will miss you dearly. I'll never forget you, ... as long as you don't forget me. <3

ex oh ex oh and 143 (link! for all you fuckers who don't know anything about the internet) if you will.


Sincerely and always truly yours,


russell louise uddin <3

the rage of an electronically made music man

so wow! i found the best fucking shit i found in a while on the internet.

i seriously don't know what the fuck i would do without mashups and versus songs. they are just so intricate and full of datas. gotta say thought. electronic music is really where it's at. electronic music is something i have no fucking idea where i'd be without.


[mashups/remixes of final fantasy vii tracks with rap/hiphop]
vinyl fantasy 7


alright then. now, let's talk for a second. philosophically speaking- one could argue that everything is subjective. fine. and thus, music- an artistic form- is also subjective.

so, i can't be 'wrong' whenever i say, "that supposed music that's called [hip-hop] and [rap] that exists on america's radio stations; sucks fucking cock. and that shit is not real hip-hop. it's quite horrid."

here's the real problem. i always run into you fuckers out there who don't appreciate electronic music. well, let me tell you something. first off, the majority of your douche 'rock' music which you think is good- is probably made electronically. electronic instruments, computers, wires. all that shit. don't be fucking stupid.

and don't say you like analog better. you don't know what the fuck you're talking about. you're growing up in a generation that barely has any hearing because of all the in-ear headphones and general headphone use we partake in. on top of that, you're not that skilled that you can REALLY tell in every song you hear, the analog sounds and the digital sounds. and sure, it's heard sometimes in some songs- the differences- but who the fuck cares? you have a fucking ipod. at least you listen to music.

oh, and all of you with your fucking loser guitar playing idols- as talented as they might be, are not any more or less musically talented than let's say... an electronic music producer. i don't know if you know this or not but... music is mathematical. if you can understand pattern and the concrete and loose mathematical theory and can keep beats and all that, i'm sure you could make music. electronic producers need different shit than a guitarist does. doesn't mean he understands "less" about music or is less "talented". it's just a different fucking way of going about music.

douchebags.

by coming here- you just learned something.

listen, motherfuckers. i don't like most of you. get it? i don't give a shit who you are. this is the end of the line.

from this point forth, i am going to permanently set some of my rawest thoughts into the history of the internet- and hence, human civilization. and you privileged pieces of shit can actually read them.

thank me later.

-russ